Advice

I know that nothing I say is going to ease the pain or make anything better. But I still feel compelled to let you know that you are not alone in your pain. You feel lost. You feel angry. And that is okay. It is okay to be angry with God, life, yourself, everyone. It's okay to feel like you don't know how to go on. Losing someone, let alone the person who knows you better than anyone else in the world, kills a part of you too. You will never be the same person you once were. This is a defining moment for the rest of your life. The pain doesn't ever go away. Your body gets used to it and adapts, but it will always be there and always be a part of you from now on.  In the end it just sucks. You want to lash out at everyone, refuse to get out of bed, and just let yourself go.  As time goes on you too will go on. You won't understand how or why, given that you are still in such pain, you are able to go on, but you do.  I'm here if you need to talk, although I know that the only person you really want to talk to isn't here anymore. It's not the same. It won't ever be the same...